Things they don't write in the rule book.
The hardest rule I have found so far is to not fall for a guy that lives in another state... and is leaving for a year. The good part, he's coming back.... and accepted a full time job. The sad part... it's approximately two hundred and eighty days away...
I should probably tell you about him. He's from the south. (Of course, no men better than the southern ones.) And he's a cajun... yup. He drove back to the great state of Louisiana today. I can definitely say, that state is giving all the other ones a run for their money in growing men. This man is fiiiiiine.
Needless to say, I have been thinking about him a lot today. Not wanting him to leave and all... and have been crying for the past hour... Yes, I know. I am a bit retarded.
Regardless of shoulds and should nots, I did. I started to fall for his crooked smile that held straight teeth, and his southern boy charm... and his wonderful personality. Knowing that he would be going back to Louisiana. Yes, I did it anyways. And I miss him. That is all there is to it.
No one told me life would be this hard. And when it was hard before, someone was always there to help me and say everything would be ok. When life was hard before, Grandma would take me in her arms and tell me everything would be ok.
I keep reminding myself that God is in control and He will see me through it all. He will take me into His arms and hold me tight when I need it most. The Cajun will be back. May is coming soon, I will graduate get an apartment, and the Cajun will be on his way back to Tulsa...to stay.
However, until May, I have decided to go on what I like to call "a man fast". No men in my life romantically until he comes back. If it was meant to be, he will return and we will pick up where we left. I need time for school, work, homework, myself and most importantly... time for God. I think this is a good choice at this time in life, but I look forward to the day in May when I see my red headed Cajun pull up....
When he does, I can almost promise I will run to him and give him one of the biggest hugs ever. One of those scenes in movies that happen at the ending. Yes, that will be me and him, and it will be a scene no movie could ever recreate.
Saying goodbye was tough, and though it should be written in the rule book somewhere, it's the tough things in life that make us stronger. With God in control, everything will be ok.
